200.

Can someone pinch me?

I haven't really been away for 200 days have I?

I actually can't fathom this. 200 days.. It feels like less than half of that. It breaks my heart that I won't be able to make a "300." entry. I wish, I wish, I wish.

My emotions are going crazy right now. The excitment of seeing everyone again. The pain of leaving this place, my home. The heart break of saying goodbye to my NZ bff. I will miss him disgusting amounts.

I keep asking myself the same question over and over again. "How do I just leave?" I've created this life for myself, and I love it. My first time living on my own, being able to do basically whatever I want. How can I leave this behind. This hasn't really been travelling, it's been LIVING.

I really can't put my thoughts/emotions into writing properly. So, I leave you with this picture.