Well I wanted something better man, I wished for something new

Well. It's been 3 months today since I stepped off that plane and entered New Zealand. What a life changing 3 months it has been. Never in my life have my emotions gone this crazy. I have cried, been so lost and come so close to just giving up and going home. But once that subsided, I laughed, loved and experienced true happiness. I've met people that picked me up when I was so close to crashing down. Those people I will remember for the rest of my life. I've made peace with issues that were keeping me down back home, and really let go and just lived.

I've realized now that from the moment I stepped off the plane, my life is forever changed. I have a real connection with New Zealand. A large piece of my heart is here now. It's not just that I'm travelling around, I actually LIVE here. I live in a house, pay bills, know that New Market has the cheapest meat, but Countdown has my favorite rice cakes, and "Cookie Time" cookies are the best in the world. Most importantly, I have friends. People that make me laugh, smile and remind me everyday how much I love it here. So I find myself asking this question "How do you just go home?" I know that I miss everyone back home, and I've got this amazing crazy summer ahead of me, but I can't help but wonder.. am I going to have a lingering feeling in my heart wishing I was still in New Zealand. Who really knows.

What I do know is that coming to New Zealand is the best decision I have ever made, and the best thing that has happened to me. I've always told myself that there is a reason why I was drawn to New Zealand. Maybe it's not that I'll meet the guy of my dreams ( Which myself, and most other people thought, and MAYBE will still happen, never know :) ) but maybe it's that being here will make me stronger, happier, and just be the person I'm supposed to be.

Well, I think that's enough self reflection for now, but.. Best 3 months of my life.

This photo pretty much sums up the happiness I've been feeling lately.

It was 100% caught in the moment. I love it.